Losing sleep.

So, I went to bed dog-tired last night at 12 am and I even took one mil of melatonin to aid my sleep.... what does my body decide to do (or more like my mind)?? Wake up at 5:40 am and absolutely refuse to go back to sleep. Ugh.

Of course, it doesn't take long after I wake up for me to start thinking. About everything. I start humming songs in my head. I start thinking about work, like "what am I going to wear today?" (I know, stressful things, haha). I mostly start thinking about how little money I have right now. It's really due to the fact that I took a week-and-a-half off of work to go home, which was totally worth it, and I know that! But it's really hard to think that so early in the morning. And Nick and I are fine and it's not like bills are hard, thank God, but it's frustrating. Especially when I thought I had much more cash in my "Wedding Fund" envelope than I actually do, now that I've counted it again. Like, $100 less than I thought I had :( And we need to start paying the church and get a DJ squared away. I really can't put anything away this month because, well, I did have fun when I was home and spend a little money, because, hell, I was on vacation! But the paycheck I just got last Friday was less than $200 because I missed an entire week on that pay period. Not fun. And my next paycheck conveniently comes right before rent is due again. I'm back to work and it will all even out and I'll be able to put money away for my wedding again, but I hate thinking about it right now, and yes, it causes me to lose sleep every once in awhile. *sigh* Yeah, I just needed to vent and release some stress. I realize that I am so lucky to live where I live, and to have the job I have, and Nick is lucky to have the job that he has. Crap, the fact that we have jobs in general is fantastic! So many people don't right now. I am so grateful for that, and I am grateful that I actually can have pretty much the wedding of my dreams if I want. I just can't wait for the day when money isn't quite as stressful! Y'know, when I'm still living paycheck to paycheck, but at least said paycheck is just a tad bit bigger than it is now. At least I have Nick to get through this time in life together! We do alright, and we live a good life, it just stinks that money can put a damper on that. Well, there's only up from here, and it's just inspiration for us to make our dreams come true in our lives :)

In the meantime, anyone wanna donate to our wedding fund??? Haha, jk... but seriously.... ;)